March 24, 2004
study now: pay, drink, eat, sleep, chew, swallow, breathe later
but all of that changed as of 330 pm last march 24. my finals were over. i may be at the end of my wits and senses at this point, but damn it all, my finals were done. i feel, however, that i must go through all of it again. just to digest the totality of the whole thing. just to grasp the hardships i had taken. or just to make sure that i don't miss anything as i write this blog.
let me begin with my previous blog entry. that entry was written amidst the company of articles about premarital sex, homosexuality, invalid marriages, concubinage, and the like. i was studying for my theology exam then. it turned out (and this really is the most maddening thing), that i didn't really need to study the whole thing. i just needed to understand the last chapter of the book. yes, a part of me sighed in relief during the examination proper, but in retrospect, i could have used all that time studying for more fascinating subjects...
...like philosophy, which was my test yesterday. it was a test was done in oral form, and this type of test is the most frightening and vomit-inducing of all. it's amazing, really. you need to study 12X12 hours for a 12-minute talkfest with your teacher. hee. anyway, when i say "vomit-inducing," i do not mean that the subject's gross or disgusting. (quite the contrary, in fact.) i just dry-heave a lot on the oral exam day itself. my stomach seems to be in a constant state of coil and recoil moments before the oral exam starts. fortunately, everything went well. my love of philosophy just soared right there and then...
...which turned out to be the climax of my tuesday, because my lack of sleep eventually overtook me at some point and i lost all interest in studying for my remaining two exams. i woke up, realizing that 1) i wasn't in my dorm; 2) my blockmates sam and joey were staring at me; and 3) i was in mcdonalds with a huge red mark on my forehead. this jolted me out of my stupor (with a lot of effort and self-flogging [hey, hey, not that kind] involved). i bought a cup of coffee, and began studying for my math and history exams...
...and these two i took awhile ago. one right after the other. after the math test was done, my blockmates and i ran from one building to another, and i felt like i was in an episode of amazing race where my partner and i were trailing all other teams. i half-expected phil to appear by the door and eliminate us. of course, phil didn't appear, but my history teacher did. it turned out the race wasn't over. i was racing time trying to solve pesky differential equations during the math test, and still i was racing time figuring out socio-political issues during the history test.
sigh. thank God the race is over.
i have fed myself with pork hotcha and sweet banana (courtesy of tapa king). i have immersed myself in reading the recap of the latest american idol episode (courtesy of twop). i have fulfilled my promise to blog (courtesy of my previous post). but i am yet to fulfill my need for sleep. forgive me for leaving early, but the buck has got to stop here. the road has got to end. the rose has got to wither. the candle-- ok, enough eschatological metaphors already. i'm spent.
good night.
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