April 08, 2004

sad

for some reason, i feel down, depressed, and sad. i don't know. i feel like crying. sigh. maybe because it's maundy thursday. or maybe it's just me.

posted by kerwin ray :: 8:17 PM :: ""

April 06, 2004

to atlas

it must be hard to have the whole world on your shoulders. how tempting it must be to just shrug it all off, take a leave, and never come back. to rest. to revel in the relief of not having to lift a burden. how easy it must be. especially if the world does not try to alleviate your pain. does not even recognize the deed you do. does not even recognize you.

so why didn't you?

it is a question that bothers me every now and then. a question which, when asked, you proclaim as unnecessary and irrelevant. a question to which i find no satisfactory answer, save for one. love. you must really love the world to endure this. you must really have seen something in its chaotic state. you really must have faith in the belief that the world loves you. loves you for what you do. loves you for you.

i will not try to dissuade you. your belief is your belief. let me just thank you now for bearing this burden. i am, after all, part of this world which you carry upon your shoulders.

thank you, atlas. may we move on in time for as long as this world exists.

happy 21. :)

posted by kerwin ray :: 9:15 PM :: ""

site referring eeks

my philosophy teacher just placed a site referrer at her site. since i access her site by clicking the link i created for it (see right side), the site referrer displays, in full view of everyone who visits it, the address of my blog. hmmm... i wonder if this is a good thing or a bad thing. it's really quite embarrassing to one day click on my chatterbox and see her name there, commenting on things that i've written or said. and i wonder if she's going to be offended that i created a link to her site without asking permission from her first. on the other hand, i think it is just as well that she knows about my blog. her insights are very much welcome, after all. hmmm... this is a difficult situation, don'tcha think?

posted by kerwin ray :: 8:15 PM :: ""

April 05, 2004

election fever

the nation is at the grip of the election fever once again. and this time, the elections are going to be especially heated, at least for me, because i get to participate in it. i was just a little toddler when the snap elections occurred, just a curious child when the 1992 elections came, and just an apathetic teen when the 1998 elections happened. now, i am a mature (ehem) college student who realizes that i have the power to change the nation with my votes. this year's election, then, is a big deal for me.

with great power comes great responsibility, so spider-man says, so i plan to be responsible with my votes. voter education comes first. and no, i don't intend to learn about these candidates just by watching their hilarious (and desperate) commercials which are shown incessantly on tv. i plan to know their platforms and their stands on certain issues. the problem is, i can't seem to find decent and complete sources with the information i need regarding those who are going to run. i searched the internet and i found this site which gives a list of the presidential, vice-presidential, senatorial, and congressional candidates. however, the site lacks pertinent and important information regarding the candidates (platform, stand on issues, etc.). inquirer has a more in-depth presentation of platforms, although it only presents the stand of the presidential and vice-presidential candidates.

clearly, i am not yet prepared to vote. that does not mean, however, that i don't have an idea who to vote. i already have a president and a vice-president in mind. i'm not going to divulge it yet, as it may still change. (hint: i'm not going to vote for the guy who loves to wear floral prints.) as for the senators and congressmen, i really have no idea. my father suggested that i make a list as soon as possible, and i plan to do just that. over the next few weeks, i'm going to make a criteria for "judging," input each candidate's scores in a spreadsheet, sort the results from highest to lowest, and pick the top 13 (for senators). surely, the excel freak in me will rejoice at such prospect.

posted by kerwin ray :: 2:29 PM :: ""