August 07, 2004
through the blurry looking glass
But what does this glimpse consist of? Never mind precision, for one can never really be precise. What matters is that one has an idea of what's in store for him or her in the future. Whatever piece of the mystery is made available at this time will surely help in preparing one for the shocks that may soon come looming ahead.
In the next 3 months, I glimpse myself seated in an airconditioned room in the US Embassy, taking the first of several tests for the actuarial track I plan to pursue.
In the next 7 months, I glimpse myself dressed in a flowing blue toga, coming up onstage to acknowledge the fact that I have just graduated.
In the next 9 months, I glimpse myself in a boarding house in Makati, excited at the prospect of interior designing my room, and even more excited at the prospect of my next-door neighbors. :)
In the next 10 months, I glimpse myself dazed at the actuary in front of me, awed at the certificates he has on the wall behind him.
In the next 12 months, I glimpse myself huddled in my desk, sifting through "important" documents, a cup of brewed coffee on one hand and an inspiring text message in my cellphone on the other. :)
In the next 24 months, I glimpse myself returning to the Ateneo with a nostalgic heart, moving through the hallways of the dorm, meeting 2 years' worth of new faces, and 2 years' worth of old ones.
In the next 48 months, I glimpse myself seated in a bustling airport, feeling the familiar coldness of the ring on my left hand as I wait for a certain plane to land, trying to think of the day when I first thought of all this, and thinking how lucky I am that I have come this far.
The plane arrives, and when the passengers from the plane start flocking through the airport, I smile. My lucky charm has arrived.
August 03, 2004
apology
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you...
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something that I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your fears
That's why I need you to hear
I am sorry. I apologize.
I wish that I could be a better man.
I'll try to be a better man.
August 01, 2004
hasta la vista, julio; bienvenido augusto
And I must say that July ended with a bang. Sam, Joey, and I finally went to Zirkoh, a place we've been dying to go to for months. It's a comedy club of sorts, a place where the mainstays sing and crack hilarious jokes althroughout the night. Dead air was a non-occurrence. Their stock of witty repertoire never seemed to run out of steam, and their voices were so unbelievable that it's not surprising that most of its mainstays have reached heights in singing competitions. He who has reached the highest point so far is Michael Cruz, the guy we went to Zirkoh for, but unfortunately he was the only one not present there. (Must be depressed for not being safe in Star in a Million.) Still, we had fun, what with all the sexiness, naughtiness, and bitchiness going on inside the club.
With that said, let me put down in writing my resolutions for this month I call my favorite. These will be brief, but enough to keep me going.
It's been said in the previous post: Less time on the virtual, more time on the real. I plan to concentrate my efforts on trying to regain what has been lost during the first two months of classes, and to be aware of what is to come in the next four months or so. In other words, academics come first. Ben and I have devised an ingenious academic strategy, and hopefully it works.
Finally, never sacrifice anything if there is no need to sacrifice. Never sacrifice food for money; never ignore academics for a social life; never neglect someone for someone else. Moderation of everything is key; a balanced mindset will carry me through the rest of the semester.
I hope that these two resolutions will stick in my head as this month moves along. Life is too short. If I can't achieve these now, when will I ever?
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