March 13, 2004

a tale of two blogs

i found myself smiling when i saw how serious my previous posts have been. i admit it. i wanted this blog to reflect the more introspective and more melancholic side of me. the other blog was to be reserved for those days when i have nothing in mind but a barrage of rants or a running list of things to do. or to buy. but then i realized that i could not possibly continue doing this without tearing myself into two. this is me, this is kerwin, this is my totality. blogging should reflect this totality. besides being a complete waste of time, space, and bandwidth, splitting myself (or my blogs) in two would just defeat the purpose of blogging.

but then again, maybe that's not the only reason why i decided to have two blogs. i found the other blog difficult to maintain and manage. what i had in mind upon riding the blog bandwagon was a simple site with just enough "flashy things" to create an atmosphere suitable for writing. what i had in mind was a blog site that would appeal to me and would make me want to write in it again and again and again. but i guess i failed on both counts. first, the skin i chose for my blog was simple enough for my tastes, but then i included a lot of things that were not really necessary. i got distracted with the idea of a super interactive mega site that i lost track of what was important: writing what i felt was relevant for me. second, although the skin was simple, it proved to be boringly simple. after a while its charm lost its hold on me. i visited it less and less often, and wrote on it even lesser still.

so i turned my sight on other blogs. i then found this. i worked on it a lot, changing the images that were present (no offense to the maker of this skin, stephanie), adjusting it so it fitted the title i had in mind. i already had a fascination with the title (and the subject) then, and even more so when i posted my first entry and even more more so when i arranged the format of the site. and now i think this is good enough for me. simple, elegant, type-worthy. your mileage may vary, of course.

now what do i do with the other blog? i guess it's time for me to move on. to make the halves whole again. i'm sorry brandnewwreck, but your time's up. i guess you're not so brand new anymore. you're just a wreck.

posted by kerwin ray :: 11:25 PM :: ""