October 06, 2004

the bliss of studying

This realization occurred to me last night as I was leaving McDo from hours of philo studying: I love studying. Yes, I love it. Not in the general sense of studying which means "going to school and becoming a student in a specific course for 4 years" but the particular sense of it which means "going to a place in Katipunan and becoming a nerd in a specific subject for 4 hours." It grants me a sense of accomplishment that only a few activities I do ever can give me. There's this high I feel of knowing that I, though studying, have contributed to my welfare as a student. Of course, that's some pretty deep shit, but what I'm really saying is that I have, through studying, made efforts to increase my QPI, and thus my chances of landing a good job in a good company. But then again (forgive me for correcting myself so often), that's just the long-term part of it. At that moment of studying, that's not even what I'm thinking. That high seems to stem from the fact that I have accomplished something, that I have become productive just for once. I guess that's the real reason behind it.

I think I'm going to feel this high more often for the next two weeks. I have a Philosophy orals for tomorrow (of which I have not yet finished studying for), a Complex Analysis orals for Thursday (yes, we do have orals in Mathematics), a History reporting for Friday (that does not require studying, but it does require some academic preparation), a Theology orals for Tuesday next week, and an Actuarial exam on Saturday. Wish me luck, guys, and if you ever see me on campus wearing a huge smile on my face, you don't have to ask me why.

posted by kerwin ray :: 1:18 AM :: ""